This is not the life I envisioned for myself when I was younger, but I’m so happy I’ve had the courage to deviate from the plan and from the expectations of myself and others; had I not leaned into this knowing and deep trust, perhaps I would have gotten the life I envisioned but was not actually meant to live... As a child, I understood what it meant to listen to my heart. As an adult, I quickly began to lose that connection. I wrote off intuition as simply fear, proof of my own inadequacy. I hushed that voice over and over until it became a whisper and eventually faded away completely. And as that voice softened into oblivion my own light began to dim as well.
I’ve spent a lot of time wading through muddy waters, just trying to find my way back to heart centre. But this connection is never lost - it’s as though your radio is tuned to the wrong frequency and only static is getting through, until you turn the dial precisely to where it needs to be to make that connection and receive the broadcast with clarity. And until you do, you get these fuzzy messages with missing pieces, coming in and out of being in a clunky, uncomfortable way.
This process of dialling in is what connects us to our higher purpose. We’re not meant to simply get through each day; we’re here to live fully and experience all that life has to offer, and for each of us, that looks and feels a bit different. All is not lost when the things you’ve built start to crumble; maybe it was time to build on more solid ground, anyway. When things shift, especially when it feels confronting and difficult, try to remind yourself that you might just be turning that dial, finding a way back to the truest message that comes directly from the heart - the one that reminds you who you really are. ♡
(July 13, 2019)