A Love Letter

I found you nine years ago on an Indian beach and I loved you instantly, completely. Though I had a companion on that trip, I was utterly alone, and that is exactly why we met, then, as we did. I was so young and already felt so defeated; my life was not following the course I'd so desperately tried to fix it upon and I was overwhelmed with depression.

That morning, when I walked down to the beach to meet you at sunrise - our first date - I was so nervous, but you quickly reminded me that we've been together for lifetimes already. I knew almost nothing about you and yet, I felt it all; this was definitely a reunion with a great love.

After our first date, I walked along the shore for what felt like years and an instant all at once. I was alone, and I I felt so connected to everything - the morning sun, the steady waves of the ocean, the bustling village nearby, and every colour, smell, and sight around me - a great cosmic embrace. I kept thinking about the way you made me feel; you'd gotten in deep and I knew it. You asked nothing of me and showed me the depth of my power and grace when I believed I had nothing left. And you have continued to do this, unconditionally, for the past nine years. 

I haven't always given myself to this relationship the way I should. I haven't been present at times. I've abused my body and my spirit and have allowed others to do the same to me. But every time I came crawling back, you only ever whispered, "I love you, and it's okay." When I feel exhausted by the trials and tragedies of living, you gently remind me of the incredible beauty of being human. Every single time I've fallen, you've brought me back to my feet. Every time I think I've messed something up, you show me that I'm learning and growing rather than failing and flailing. You've taught me a thousand lessons about love and a few about loss. You point out my power whenever I misplace it. You've shown me how to trust, forgive, let go, move on, and begin again, over and over and over again. 

YOGA. Union. Eternally intertwined, in bliss. 

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